Today, October 4th, I turned 26.... Guess who remembered? Well Lets see.... My Husband remembered and spoiled me, My Husband's family (Parents, and 2 Brothers) remembered, My Step-Cousin remembered, A bunch of my internet friends from when I was a teen remembered, MySpace remembered (LOL), And well my mom remembered at the last minute and reminded her parents.
I'm still waiting to hear from my Bio-Dad's family..... Actually still waiting for a happy birthday wish from Last year from them..... Waiting for Step-Dad to say anything....
It really hurts that my Bio-Dad's family forgets. They use to be the ones I could count on, the ones that always remembered and always where there for me. But things changed and after my Bio-Dad died it was like I died too. They'd forget me, forget to call me, or come see me. I was suddenly dead to them it seemed. I figured it was they felt guilty cause my Bio-Dad was never there for me, so they felt they needed to make up for his wrong doings and spoil me. They did a great job at it too, But then he died and it was like Oh well we don't owe her anything anymore, let's move on.
Well in doing so they completely made me feel even more alone. I had felt abandoned when my Bio-Dad killed his self, I felt like I was missing a piece of myself. Then his family abandoned me and that feeling of depression got deeper and I realized that I could no longer trust anyone since the ones I trusted most, abandoned me.... I am still learning to trust, but its a hard battle uphill and sometimes I fear I'm gonna roll back down head first.
SCHOOL:
Still haven't written my Psy Paper.... UGH..... School is going great and I am enjoying myself, but sometimes I feel like why try at all (Just my BiPolar getting me). I enjoy my classes and my classmates.
IN OTHER NEWS:
Unlike other teenagers, I wasn't able to get my license. We didn't have a car and I saw no point in getting something I could never use. Well I have a car now (Ok its my Husband's LOL) And after 4 years together I have decided to get my license. LOL. So as of October 6th I will be going for my DMV driving test, I have had my permit for a year. Wish me luck, Hopefully I will be a licensed driver with the rest of the adults. YAY ME.
lol
Heather
2 comments:
Happy Birthday! Weeee! Did you get any fun presents?
I don't have my license either. I don't know if I'll ever get one. And we have a new car that is easy to drive(the old one had a shaky clutch and the gears and such on the stick were rubbed off so you couldn't see where was what! Yeah, no. I am NOT learning on that.)so I keep telling myself that I should learn to drive...
But, ehh. I like being driven everywhere. Inflates my ego. :}
Maybe if you end up being hella into it, you could inspire me to drive too. We'll see!
Good luck with driving!
I PASSED!!!!! I recommend getting your license, Just cause you have it doesn't mean you have to drive. But it is always very good to have in case of an emergency.
Also, Yes I did get fun presents. My daughters got me flowers from the garden and my husband took me to a movie and dinner and then pampered me with a spa treatment at home from him. I also got the new Post Secret book. I love Post Secret.
Anyways, GET YOUR LICENSE. lol. Then me and you can meet up on some road and race one day. lol
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